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Walt McDonald
October Compost Fall hauls us to the dump and plows the plunder under, corners of our backyard steamy, compost of leaves and lettuce, peach halves the old dogs gnawed. We toss whatever’s ripe for silage— coleslaw, okra and squash too long after harvest, tomatoes soft as English sausage. Chop, stir it in, vegetable shepherd’s pie, leaves layered like a flaky crust. Now let the dark pot boil, autumn sun turned down, continual simmer into December, nights chilly enough for fire. On the sofa, we lean and hold each other’s hands and watch flames leap and flicker, children long gone, scattered like pollen, skin of our arms and knuckles shriveled. Logs in the hearth break apart by midnight, orange embers holding heat like fists. After the Madness of Saigon Nights, my skiff stalls in the fog until I swing legs down and wade ashore, disgusted. At dawn, black coffee to drown the dreams. No keg of beer for breakfast—this is yellow Texas sun like eggs over easy, not Vietnam. Songs of daily bread belong to finches giddy in the sycamore, feeder packed with pounds of sunflower seed. I’m back at my fighting weight. On the deck, I’d rather sing than eat, no arias of ham and grits, thick bacon and imported cheese. Doves coo like slow maple syrup over Willie Nelson’s twang on the radio. Rocket attacks came back last night, crackling like static from Saigon. In the shower, I throw my head back and shout old bawdy squadron songs, no one to stop me. I try to wash it down the drain, memories of sausage in the mess hall after the night’s attack, more bodies in the morgue, somebody splattering catsup over eggs and steak, pumping up for battle, hot food to die for, Billy Joe and the Outlaws blasting songs on the jukebox, fat cooks shouting and big lids slamming down. When My Sister Turned Eighty My sister was a wife until her boys turned fifty. Lucinda’s husband was a lout, loud-mouthed old bachelor who left his plows to bed her. He called all women them, kept his wife in Cadillacs and deer meat, freezer big as a bedroom. She was taller than him and handsome, ten degrees smarter but shy. She almost died with triplets, and only the twin boys lived. Her husband hated dogs, gave his boys dollars for all stray mutts they shot. After teenage battles and boredom, my sister learned to smoke and vote. My brother-in-law always interrupted, whining opinions without listening, mistaking her silence for reverence. She shut him away in a rest home at eighty, yelling from his bed in a whisper, Don’t, don’t. In baggy pants and a haircut, she checked herself into the all-male wing of that rest home. She smokes cigars in the day room, tapping her cane and laughing. She hustles old men for hours, cards and dominoes, rodeo facts and football. She’s one of the guys and they like it, calling her Luke, Big Guy. When I visit, she calls me Kid Brother and ignores me, shuffling for her buddies, doling bawdy jokes and cigars. If they notice her earrings, her water-balloon breasts like bellies, they think she’s what she claims, a wrestler retired fifty years ago, the better half of a tag-team that won the belt in North America, her half-blind partner gone to Mexico for gold. Uncle Bob and the Weather Girls Uncle Bob thought watching weather could change it. Nobody talked in his parlor when weather girls came on. Aunt Edna shelled peas and rocked softly to please him, glancing up at the screen now and then. She knew what she knew. Corns grew on his thumb, clicking from shows she watched to the weather. Old Uncle Bob was a monk devoted to weather girls. He loved the flow of their tailored clothes when they strolled from the Midwest to Maine, like dancing, exposing squalls in Illinois, showers of their long, blonde hair. Blue skies or blizzards depended on secrets those women kept hidden behind their backs until they twirled, revealing regions of highs and lows, the fronts he wanted most. He studied their codes and curves, the color of hail in their eyes, the angle of clouds dangling danger— tornadoes, drought, a sudden freeze. ![]() |
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