Michelle Elvy edits at Blue Five Notebook and A Baker’s Dozen and is also active with poetry and flash fiction in New Zealand. _______ Michelle Elvy blogs by the light of the Glow Worm _______ |
Michelle Elvy Snapshot He brings the
spoonful of Quaker Oats to his lips; his hand trembles but the oats
stick to the spoon. His mind quivers and nothing sticks. A woman smiles up
at him from a photo on the front page of the morning paper. He thinks
of his wife, the way she tucked her hair behind her left ear, like the woman in
the photo. He can barely picture her any more. His mind offers snapshots
of the life he’s lived: a green metal swing-set he shared with his sister,
the arc of waves over a long white beach, a fallen friend’s face shaded by a
muddied helmet. A white cat –
or was it grey? A piano and a flute. A blue floral
sofa he never liked. Bacon, port, strawberry pie. And sometimes he can feel his
wife’s hand in his – the small fingers with their neatly trimmed nails, the wide
gold band that wouldn’t come off over aging knobby knuckles, the long lifeline
(a lie, he reckons: she should have outlived him by years). Sometimes he
hears her laughter in his dreams. But he cannot recall much about her face –
his mind is a broken camera. Still, he always loved that hair behind her ear. Resolution Dreams of gold everything exploding beautiful, new blooms from old and you feel calm and light shit’s resolved in the night house-job-commute: kapow! broke-down car: kapow! cheater-husband: kapow! In deams of gold you line ’em up and say Off with your head! In dreams things happen just that way, with the flick of a wand a tilt of your head or just a withering glance Bad things evaporate into happy floating mist and you can dance, long flowing limbs even the neighbour’s yappy dog — one raised eyebrow does him in and now you can
breathe and now you can
dance And now you’re awake to a water-stained ceiling, a whirring fan reeling and dull grey sheets pressing heavy and
stealing your breath.
And to the ugly smoke-and-vodka lump feeling its way to the light of day you say Kapow! And to yourself, in a feather-hush whisper, because you have honeygold eyelids you say now, you say loud now: Happy New Year | ||